Deep Thoughts: The great gray funk

Saturday, August 22, 2009

The great gray funk

I don’t like to think of myself as moody, but sometimes I can’t get out of that funk that kills my creative energy. All I want to do is sleep, or blow kids up on TF2. It’s been a solid week this time. I still have no mental energy. I’m in a funk for sure. I think I need a change of scenery.

I know my job has something to do with it. I sit and think all day. My mind is focused on one tough nut after another. At times, it sucks me dry. My job is not the reason. I like my job. It’s what I write about on my blog. I can only take so much. These people are horrible. There soul crushing acts of violence are too much for me at times. I cannot open my email for fear of reading about another childhood lost.

July was the worst month in my experience writing about clergy sexual abuse. I started to dream about the cases in early August. I could not get them off my mind. But what really pushed it over the edge was the hate mail. It has reached a new level of viciousness now that I’ve started to include Catholics and Mormons in my posts.

I will not stop, but I will take breaks instead. I’m back now, but still a little gun shy. While I’ve been gone, the clergy has been busy. I have some catching up to do.

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Efogoto · 817 weeks ago

I've been following your posts for a long while now. It's a worthy effort to track the transgressions of priests to debunk the claim of moral superiority.
Do you summarize this in a list somewhere?
Are others linking to your info?
Thank you for all your efforts on this.

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Jack 119p · 817 weeks ago

If there is one thing I am learning, it is that we have to take care of ourselves while doing this sort of thing. I know exactly what you mean about being unable to get some of this stuff off your mind. Breaks are essential.

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dromedaryhump · 817 weeks ago

Mojoey,
Hang tough. The day that theists successfully use intimidation to silence us is the day the atheist movement starts going backward.
There is no backward from here...not for us.

Thats what scares them the most

You're doin the Lard's work. Keep it up!

Hump

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Anna Renee · 817 weeks ago

It's in times of deep troubling of the soul, when one pours out all his energies doing the work of the Lard, when one wants someone to commiserate with one's pain and all they say is "keep it up" but they aren't really there for you--it's times like these when we Christians lean on the Lord. People are not dependable, but the Lord God Is.

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dromedaryhump · 817 weeks ago

Anna,
what a lovely sentiment. In deed, human life forms, the physical, those who you can touch, can touch you, who can comisserate and empathize with your feelings just can't measure up to an imaginary skyfriend. I see you travel with a similarly impaired comment posting companion. How cute.

I guess next time you need a kidney you'll reject the donation from a human who isn't "really there for you" and wait and see if Jebus is a good match instead. Besure to let us know how dependably that works for you.

The platitudious bleating of you sheep mind slaves is just so insipid, predicatable and boring. But at least it's consistantly so.

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guest · 816 weeks ago

Do you think people don't have the right to be upset, when you are degraded their religion? Maybe it is time to stop playing the Almighty. I will pray for you.

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dromedaryhump · 816 weeks ago

Guest, said:"... when you are degraded their religion?"

[ I'm going to interpret that as "when you degrade their religion?"]

Guest,
You have every right to be upset, just as I have every right to express my disgust and incredulity with the ignorant statements, inane plaitudes, and delusion of believers who are slaves to a mind virus.

May be it's time you drop playing 10th century mindless theist peasant and join the world of 21st century reality.

Yes...you go ahead and pray for me, on your knees please. Meanwhile I'll think for you.

Yous in Chrust,
Hump

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guest · 816 weeks ago

I was writing to Mojoey

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dromedaryhump · 816 weeks ago

guest...
well, there are no mind readers here, or any where for that matter.

But I'm going to go out on a limb here and risk over stepping my bounds by saying I was speaking for both myself and Mojoey.

So...did you pray for us? I didn't feel anything. Please pray again, rinse, and repeat.

Hump

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guest · 816 weeks ago

Oh, I haven't said my night prayers yet. Don't be condesending. I feel bad that the guy is having nightmeres over things that he shouldn't worry about. People are going to stick behind the people they care about and the God that they belive in. Do you believe in anything? Try it.

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Bart Centre · 816 weeks ago

Condescention is all I can offer superstitious mind slaves. Get used to it.

Nope, don't "believe" in anything.. I hold no ignorant blind beliefs dictated to me by ancient cultists, or clergy shaman. I leave "beliefs" to the baaaing sheep who have rejected reality in favor of myth..

What I do have are strong "convictions", and "positions," born of logic common sense, scientific evidence, experiencial and repeatable observations. Try it.

Oh..of course, I "stick behind" Zeus, Isis, Tammuz, Mithra, Thor, Odin and Moloch, but only in my weak moments...LOL>

Here's a thought, pray for your god to restore all the limbs of the amputees around the world. Let us know how that works for you. Better yet, I'll check out the results on CNN.

Good luck with that.

Hump

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CyberLizard 52p · 816 weeks ago

Screw the jebus trolls. I totally hear you about the burnout. I was there myself not too long ago. This stuff eats away at you. Sometimes you have to take a break and focus on positive stuff. It's hard when SIWOTI, but we just have to let others handle it for a while. The theistards will still be there when you get back.

I'm thinking for you LOL

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CyberLizard 52p · 816 weeks ago

Screw the jebus trolls. I totally hear you about the burnout. I was there myself not too long ago. This stuff eats away at you. Sometimes you have to take a break and focus on positive stuff. It's hard when SIWOTI, but we just have to let others handle it for a while. The theistards will still be there when you get back.

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breakerslion 40p · 816 weeks ago

I have seen such stupid that I have contemplated removing my own head with a hacksaw. I truly believe that I do not belong on the same planet with these simpletons. Example: "if evolution was real humans, and animals alike would not need reproductive organs." - http://www.fstdt.com/QuoteComment.aspx?QID=65081

Then I remember that I am not alone.

Don't screw the Jebus trolls, pity them, for they have been truly and thoroughly mindfucked by self-serving beggers.

If prayer worked, you would receive a discount on your insurance.

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TeleprompterPP 33p · 816 weeks ago

Mojoey, my thoughts are with you as you make this difficult journey. You're not alone.

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